I am sure some of it is chemical imbalance. Other parts are from my childhood and abusive life. Much I could not control at my young age. In time I learned to seek out help from professionals. And to listen to my heart. Making my own life motto of "There is always time to DANCE!"
Why am I going over this? I recently finished reading the true story of Repairing Rainbows by Lynda Fishman. It reminded me of how important it is to take control of your life. To grow, heal and love once again, no matter your past. Her journey from losing her mother and two sisters at the young age of thirteen, growing with a father numb from the loss and the effects that carried into her adult life. I can only imagine the silence of a home filled with sadness. And how hard it is to pick up the job of homemaker without the training a mother gives. You can read a segment of Repairing Rainbows here. Lynda also learned to put a harness on her life. That she controls the path she takes. It is all in choices we make. Yes, we can not control what happens around us. But we can choose on how to respond to those events. Lynda does what she has to do with a CAN DO attitude. I love knowing that I can talk to Lynda myself too. Yes, she has a twitter account and blog that you can follow if you wish. I feel very lucky to have had this book for a review. Thanks also to Tribute books for supporting me with this book. Here is a TV interview with Lynda. Very moving!
Like Lynda I work on seeing life as I want it to proceed. No, not fake rose colored glasses. But taking the everyday joys and making them important. For example today Princess Emma is hanging out with me. I know I have to clean the dog yard and a ton of chores are stacked up for me to do after being out of the house this week. I could focus on all the work and how much is not done. Instead I am focusing on the time with Princess Emma. The fun of her swinging on our tire horse swing. She says "It is great to have the gentle summer breeze on my face." She is right about that. Sharing a cherry pop tart was great too. We both giggled over the pink sprinkled topping pretending on how it was made. I like the idea of Pink Clouds with Rainbow Rain. Yes, during all of this I am doing lil chores so my list will get knocked down a bit. But more so, I am living filled with joy.