Still my quiet place here. Like talking in my head. I know it is good to have a way to air my thoughts and feelings and not necessarily what anyone else hears. So what am I feeling lately?
Like giving up. Like I am only here for others when they need the help of some kind. Like I am unnoticed otherwise. Like an instant worker that is called on....robot-like.
I do not get a phone call, text or message from anyone of come visit me, let's have lunch or wanna talk. Instead, I hear when it is, I need help, wanna clean, here is a task that I can't do. I do not feel noticed as a friend or even desired to be with to hang around. Only a worker, doer, someone to complete a job.
It makes me want to just hide. Not reach out. Not let anyone in anymore. Quit where I am at.
Lonely being only asked to work.
Like giving up. Like I am only here for others when they need the help of some kind. Like I am unnoticed otherwise. Like an instant worker that is called on....robot-like.
I do not get a phone call, text or message from anyone of come visit me, let's have lunch or wanna talk. Instead, I hear when it is, I need help, wanna clean, here is a task that I can't do. I do not feel noticed as a friend or even desired to be with to hang around. Only a worker, doer, someone to complete a job.
It makes me want to just hide. Not reach out. Not let anyone in anymore. Quit where I am at.
Lonely being only asked to work.
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You know how special that makes me feel?
Like I swallowed the moon and the stars and I just shine now!