Some days I don't know why I try?
It seems if I care I am wrong.
If I back off I am callous.
I want to be there yet I get the impression I am interrupting.
Tried to figure out way to have a break.
It is back firing.
Want to have people safe.
Not for me to say or do.
I don't know.
I can clean, feed, wipe and sweep.
I am alone.
I try to shoulder the burden.
And fail!
The more I am putting out there,
the more I am screwing up.
I think I am going to go back into hiding.
Easier, less hurt and not in any one's way.
I guess what we learn is for a reason.
Taught for over 30 years to be quiet, not be noticed and compliance is the key.
Lynette....I don't know what is going on, but I want you to know that I have you in my thoughts and prayers. Big hugs to you my friend. My email is open if you need to talk.
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ReplyDeleteThat all sounds so sad. I hope I am misunderstanding it but I don't think I am. Hey we are all here for you and you can us me as support. I am sure that I am speaking for a lot of us our here. When you are down look up into the sky and thank the good lord that you are on this earth and here for a reason. Check out this:http://kidzorg.blogspot.com/2009/03/whatever-your-cross.html
ReplyDeleteim sending you big hugs, dear friend :)
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that you are feeling this way. I wish I could say something insightful and/or helpful. At least something funny to make you smile. I will just send big warm hugs. You are a cool person. Just be. As for the ones who don't appreciate you, remember the great line from a movie I never saw: "F* 'em, they're trash."
ReplyDelete(((((HUGS))))) My "door" is always open ~ my email is on my blog & I'm a great listener ! Please don't feel alone !
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone. Sometimes it's hard to think that anything you do matters... but it does.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
Hey Hey Hey - YOU ARE IMPORTANT therefore YOU MUST BE NOTICED and MUST NOT be compliant. EVERY PERSON IS WORTHY OF FEELING SPECIAL FROM TIME TO TIME!
ReplyDeleteI don't know what happened to make you feel that you aren't worthy but you need to wipe that thought OUT of your mind.
HUGS. I hope things are better real soon.